My Grp A friend came online to ask me how's 301 and 311 and the group allocations?

My reply to him was "Well, I got allocated for these 2 mods."

Perhaps he really came to the wrong person. He should have gone looking for someone else that could paint a rosier picture to him.

Its been a long time since I last blogged.. But blogging always seems to be an avenue for me to vent my frustration.

These few months have been a great challenge to me with significant changes taking place in my life, especially in my family. I finally understood how difficult life can be when your family member is ill, and requires your constant care and attention.

It is even more difficult when you have to look after them and at the same time go to work, or even travel overseas to work.

All these were some of the stress that I had to face over the past few months. Not many friends know about this except probably a few that asked why. But even so, it doesn't really help even if they know about it. Rather, instead of helping me minimize my stress, some just add on to my stress. If you know that a problem exists, I believe the minimum thing you can do is to at least inform me immediately and not me having to ask you about it.

And when I asked u about it, you didnt even offer to provide solutions to solve the problems and yet wanting me to provide you with solutions. Fine, I gave you a piece of my mind and tell you what to do, but apparantly what's the result, did any discussion take place? Was there even effort to minimize the bad situation? Maybe, a discussion did take place but was there any concrete plan or solution out of it? While I do understand that some did really tried to help and I'm grateful about it, but it didnt mimimize the pain when the plan failed and others just let things carry on. There are so many of you to think of a good solution to solve the problem for 1 entire week but yet nothing came out. And I'm pushed to face it all by myself, fair? Ya, nothing is fair in this world, but at least if there are ways to solve the problem, solve it. If don't have, inform me. Don't tell me to come to class and say that we will discuss about it, giving me false hopes thinking that you guys have an alternative plan.

It really doesn't help to make comments like "Are you ok?" , "You can or not?". It also doesnt help to say things like "How are your group members?". So if my group members are bad enough, will you go to my group in place of me to face all the shit? Or are you all gonna provide support for me to finish my project?

Yes, I do agree that someone did mention that he is willing to pull out to join me and I'm thankful about that.

And if you think it is no big deal to be allocated, then you can be the one to be sacrificed! Like what some of you have said, don't assume that people are ok with your decisions. Since I'm not in Singapore at that time, no one has the right to make decision for me, unless every one of you have long decided that it is gonna be this way.

Nevertheless, I would still want to apologise to some (you know who you are) that took the trouble and pain to call the prof for me. I didn't want to vent my frustration on anyone but when people around me harp on it, I can't bring myself not to think of it.