In the midst of mugging tax on a silent tuesday night... Like what Joyce always say, my learning curve is on a decline.. Reaching saturation soon.. I hate nights that are spent mugging.... Tax so chim... My small little brain just refuse to accept more... Think will be sleeping very soon... Cos already so tired how to absorb... I just can't sustain long nights..

Just as my brain stop thinking about work, I think of other stuff.. Feel very sad esp when u think of certain things that you really ought not to do but u somehow did it. Things that you think you are right but when you think long, you are wrong. And you simply start losing things...

If given a chance, I would have done certain things and wouldn't do certain things.

Life is so complicated...Somehow feeling unsecured....

I'm so gonna die... There's 5 chapters of tax to study... I have not really prepared for malay (though i already s/ued.. haha) and I don't think I'm inclined to doing my accounting tutorial. Is too difficult. Maybe is not that difficult but I guess at this critical point where u got 2 quizzes coming ahead, you won't be able to crack your brains to do them. Like what hs said to me yest, probably after the solutions are out then you re-do them is much better. And I felt like that too, although is not a good way, but ya... It is better that way, save you more time then to crack your brains over 1 question for hours. At the end of the day, the exam only entitles you 1/2 hour to finish it.

There's just so many things to do and it seems that there ain't much time left. At my snail pace speed now, I think I probably will be very stress next week and the weeks to come..

I think I'm very weak.. People can mug until wee hours and feel so fresh the following day in school. But for me, after 12 is like I'm seeing stars and when I wake up the next morning, I still feel zombi-fied.

My company law notes are everywhere.. And I realise why Jianyi and David don't write much during class. Cos when you go home and you read that crappy handwriting of yours, it just look greek to you. Haha.. And then you got to go back to that fav textbook of yours again. Everyone seems to be doing very well for company law assignment. I pray hard..

Met up with my darling metalz today to celebrate Nette's bday. Lunch was celebrated at Ju Shing Jong and thank u minz and cee for the treat... Great lunch and great food.. We had a great time there, eating and chatting..

After lunch it was raining cats and dogs, so we decided to go Minz house to play mahjong. End up haven't finish 1 round, all was tired.. So we end up sleeping and watching tv while the day continues to rain.

Left her house at 6pm. Nette, Yuesi and me then went to White Sands for dinner. Had dinner at the HK cafe and we even took neoprints after dinner.. So long nv take liao.. Macham some secondary students going crazy over those colourful japanese photo taking machines.. Haha..

Its been quite some time since I met them and they all realised that I don't look exactly good. Ya so I told them I was very stressed and it was quite bad during the past few weeks till now. So my fren analysed the situation and I sort of agree with the reason behind my stress. This was further proven by my mother when she said the same thing tonight.

Wat to do? Perhaps, all these while I have been taking things for granted. And now is retribution time to pay back all that I did in the past.

I'm gonna cold war with someone... I know this person sure got read my blog and (he/she) most probably gonna laugh over it... Haha...

Once in a while, cold war a little oso not bad ma.. Add spice to our boring lives esp during this tough period..

Today, my friend whom I know for like 5 years plus enlightened me that I think too much.. Ya maybe really i inferred too much and ignorance is probably a bliss.

Anyway, I'm not going to bother to explain to some ppl when they make sarcastic comments about me. The more I explain, the more complicated things become and in the end, I still end up being the black sheep. I have a clear conscience why bother what u have to say. In any case, what you say is like 90% inaccurate, 80% incorrect, 70% crap.. So don't just see things on the surface and comment. In the past, I have lots of respect for some people. The behaviour, the attitude towards work and friends, but nowadays the actions and words just irritates me. I may be keeping quiet but that doesn't mean I'm not angry or I can pretend nothing happened. I really hope I'm wrong but I think this time round, my instinct tells me that I'm like 85% correct.

I guess this is the way of life in this cruel and practical society. Gone are the days where simple frenships exist and life being so simple. Now, frens are just like pawns in chess. Only those that got value, can make use of are frens being considered. It is so true esp when someone who seldom talk to you come looking for you either on the phone or msn. Luckily, I still have that little bit of worth in me. If not, I think probably I won't be associated with many people.

rI want to do my accounting project now but I just can't do.. Can't open hotmail and there's no way I can see my report. So I decided to blog while David's taking a nap in the IT Lab.

I feel so sian... Especially yesterday. Both in sch and outside sch. Everything is just not smooth. Maybe only got myself to blame for all these, but I expect things to be better. A lot of things happened recently and I don't know isit because of all these that I'm affected.

Sometimes I don't know if I did the wrong thing for certain issues. I questioned myself if I did my part or have I lacked in something.

Emo.....

I have finally finished my translation quiz, my tax quiz, my law assignment and in less than 24 hours my accounting quiz will be over.. Can't wait for all these to end if not I will go crazy.

Today was a long day for me and by the time I finished my acc tutorial, I had no energy anymore. Canteen was so packed so I skipped lunch.. There's probably one of the reasons why I'm so restless by 330... Took 179 out of sch as there was no cab available in sch. Reached Boon Lay and went to the Taxi Stand and hopped on to the cab home... I just want to go home. Don't ask me why I didn't eat when I'm hungry. I have no appetite to eat especially with so many stuff bothering me. I just want to go home and get whatever the house has.

In the end, end up nothing. So poor me can only eat biscuits.. That's the reason why I lost weight this sem. Due to the 830 classes, I don't really eat breakfast.. By the time lunch comes, I'm too emo to eat becos of the crowd. I'm just too ...... I think all of you must be speechless by now..

Ok got to go study acc... So stress..