Sorry to keep u guys waiting cos I really wasn't in the mood to blog anything for the past week. Nevertheless, i enjoyed myself greatly last saturday with a mini-gathering with my choir gang at seoul garden. It has been quite a long time since i last saw all of them. Everyone is just busy with what they are doing now and it is really hard to meet up. Still, there were many things that kept us chatting endlessly and the lame jokes that we always had, had brighten up my day after the occurence of the series of events that happened recently. Really missed the days in choir and the wonderful moments at Genting. Here are some photos that we took that day at seoul garden:

Me and my choir gang.

Acting cute Group photo 1.
Acting Cute Group photo 2! Oops, I'm looking elesewhere
Wayne and me. Black and white combination.
Me & Kenneth, the birthday boy. Both in white. Me acting cute again, with kenneth staring at me with disgusted look.

Things are hopefully better now. At least, by 20% hopefully after yesterday. I know this will take time to heal. I'm not expecting any thing more now. Let nature takes its course ba. Perhaps, next week would be a better week? Let's hope so.

The past week has not been a good one for me. Probably the people in the office should know why. Even though work load has greatly reduced, and work has been quite smooth-sailing these days, I'm just not happy. A typical day at work probably means staring at the 2 screens, hoping for emails of results to pop out. Otherwise, I would probably just talk to eric or the team beside me about work and crack some lame jokes, that i forced myself to laugh upon. Even morning breaks seem quiet and lifeless to me.

Eric is right, I have played too much. I have talked too much. People around me could have been tolerating my nonsense for a very long time but i did not realise it. I should really reflect on my words and actions before saying or doing it.

Zh is right. I leave no room for negotiation with people and would just unwilling accept my mistakes without reflecting on them.

Zy is right. I ought to let him calm down and let time wash away all the past.

I guess I'm such a useless friend. I have done nothing for the past months, but just pure irritating and making him worry all the time. It was all along him who gave me the counselling, the advice to the people around me and the concern that i need when i first join the big family in NSSC. It was him who covered me for my mistakes in front of superiors. It was him who gave me so many chances when i made unforgivable mistakes. It was him who have given me the support and encouragement when work does not goes on smoothly and whenever i got reprimanded by eric for my work quality. On the other hand, what have i done for him? Really nothing! I only know how to make him angry, sad and lose my confidence in me.

I really ought to be more understanding. I thought by making me happy, he would feel the same. It is pure selfishness. I should have treasure all the chances and forgiveness that was given. But everything is just too late!!

It is me that created this ending and i really must accept it. As much as i still treasure this friendship, i knew things would not be the same anymore. Perhaps Zy and Zh is right. If i continued on this way, I would probably lose more... I wouldnt dare to beg for forgiveness but i really hope this painful incident would let me learnt the lesson and that things would be resolve after that.

This week is considered quite an ok week. At least office is not as bad as the past few weeks and I'm not that busy. Had night counter duty with Zheyu on Monday. Quite a bad experience, considering this is the 1st time i did a WEEKDAY night counter duty. Was half-dead when i reached office the next day. The suay thing is my leave actually got rejected. Haiz.. So no choice but to continue working for the entire day.

Headed to Chinatown after work yesterday with office peeps to celebrate Scott's(the friendly giant) birthday. He brought us to a Vegetarian restaurant there and the food is not bad though it is a bit starchy for me. All along I liked eating vegetarian food due to its simplicity and surprises it gives to me. Esp when sweet and sour pork looks so real like the normal one that we had in our daily life. Chatted over at coffee bean after the meal and had a fun time there despite being beaten up by xx until my left hand now feel so pain. It still hurts greatly now. Was super tired when i reached home and i landed on my bed right after show for a deep good sleep till this morning.

Went for dinner with metals tonight to celebrate nette's bdae. Settled down for thai food at Marina Square. The food is actually not bad though is too spicy for my liking. Ended our meal with a red ruby dessert which taste a bit weird to me. Walked around at the newly-revamped Marina Square and headed to Suntec City for our ice cream treat. The ice-cream at Ben & Jerry is fabolous and i liked the service they provide there. Friendly and humorous service people that brightens up everybody's day. The Chunky Monkey flavoured ice-cream is the one i liked most amongst the other flavours that we ordered. Yum Yum

Really missed those college day that we had. It's been quite some time since i last saw them in August. Sometimes, i wonder why can't we serve NS after our varsirty education. This 2 years really drift many apart and some might even lose contact with their college friends due to the busy and hectic schedule that all of us have.

The feeling of the office just sux these few days. Got scolded for the past few days and is really very tired with all the stupid things that people create in the office. I really can't wait for december to come.

Nothing much happened recently. Went dinner with Douglas on Thursday night after work. Its been quite a while since i last saw him. Went to Jack's place to have their dinner set and it is not bad as i thought. Discussed about army life and realised that he is leading a much more simpler and fulfilling life than i was. No office politics, no stress, and no pressure. Are combat units that fantastic? He must be enjoying life in Brunei now though it is an army training program.

Work recently was not as smooth as i thought. Though the High Key period is over, there is still a lot of bits and pieces of things to tidy up and settle. Feeling rather sick of all the deferment stuff that has been given to me and i'm now beginning to lose my momentem for work. Can't wait for ORD to come and going back to study. At least, i need not worry so much about being assessed or being criticised of my work.