I know this period of time is the toughest, but this is simply too tiring and my subconscious keep telling me to rest. I am stucked at home since last thurs and i have not step out of my house 1 inch. So sad rite.... Feel like dying

Have been mugging endlessly at home with the 3 subject notes covering my entire study table. I seriously got study but it just seemed to me that wadever i study i will forget. I'm so scared. For example, I spent my weekend studying ceons notes but today i got nothing about econs in my brain... I am so sad now.... As for chem, I'm quite glad that I covered most of inorganic, organic and some physical chem. As for maths, I just finished statistics and is gonna tackle those stupid pure maths topics soon. So much to memorise.... I really feel like dying... Guess for econs i have to choose topic to study and make sure that it will come out real easy for me.

As for now, I'm waiting for fri to come so as to relieve the stress that i'm facing rite now. Anyway, veri happy to hear that NS service will be reduced to the 2 yrs.Yay!!!

Let's just update about yesterday and today, since nothing much happened on mon and tues. Except that me n doug went to seoul garden to feast after medical checkup. It's been long since i ate with him in seoul garden, and I must confess that it is really a veri long time. As for the remaining time of the 2 days, it was spent on studying, i would say revising lecture notes and practicising some maths questions only.

Wednesday was an eventful day for me, its jubilate. Agreed to meet up early with the rest so as to take photos. I reached sch at abt 8am and was in such a sleepy mode. Yan Sen was late and i was told by Howard,to stand in for him as a facilatator. Though i signed up for the clinics, but i eventually agreed to Aishah's request to stand him for her as a facilitator. However, this means that i have to miss the chance to sing with MJ choir. So sad, but neverthelesss i get to work with Mike Brewer and Jonathan Velasco, two well-known clinicians and i get to hear those pri sch kids sing. So cute.... After the choral clinics, as usual, i stayed back for committee meeting to discuss abt testimonials AGAIN.... Yes, have to go through some members profile again, some sort of moderation since CCA from this year is gonna stand a higher weightage of 5%. Anyway, really hate to do this because u go to the extend to be critical abt others' attributes. I know everyone is trying to be fair and trys hard to give value judgement, but i still feel that sensetivity to others feelings should not be neglected. Anyway, its now too late to say anything and i think the teachers will be veri fair and just in writing remarks about each and every individual. Committee meeting ended at around 3 and Kenneth suggested of having lunch with Paulus and co. I agreed. Paulus ordered me to lock the choir room door for him and guess wad, as i was abt to get the keys from him, the keys dropped and fell onto the floor with a loud thud. At that moment, i could see that Paulus was extremely angry and he shouted with a "fine" right onto my face. Dunno why i oso in bad mood, shouted back at him. As a result, he left without me and ken while we went to the library to return books. He gaved me the excuse that he thought we were in front of him which is not true.

Never mind, in the end me n ken went to Changi Airport to have lunch and studided at BK. Haha, not exactly studying, but was gossiping and toking. Followed that, we took train to SCH and settled for the concert. It was quite an enjoyable concert. At the end of the concert, Paulus said gd bye to me, dunno is not angry with me or wad. But who cares, Kenneth told him to reserve seats for us but in the end we ended up sitting all by ourselves up at the "high" seats. Never mind, expected this to happen. I dunno whether i should be angry with him or not. Sometimes really dunno what he's thinking.

As for today, me, douglas, Eileen & Angela went to consult mrs lim for chem. Covered quite a lot and was quite beneficial. Most importantly, we met up with TCS firming a chi drama. Saw Jacelyn Tay act and took photos with her. Haha. She is actually quite pretty, u know. Den the 4 of us went for lunch at white sands and left at ard 230

As for now, I'm studying my lecture notes on chem and guess there's lots of work for me to do ahead.

Yesterday's movie treat was such a disappointment. Harry potter 3 was not nice at all. Wasted money for nothing. Money at Pasta Mania, money for popcorns and drinks. Haiz.....
So irritating. Before the movie jus started, I spilled the box of popcorn that i shared with Eileen and was subsequently scolded by her for being such a clumsy mouse. Haha, for the entire movie, Eileen was holding on to it and refused to let me have a hold of it. Nevertheless, i still get to eat some.... However, going for movies with kanasai people is still the first time. Hope to have more of such outings...perhaps during spider man 2. Den we can ask more ppl to tag along.

Today's medical checkup was stupid and long. All sorts of tests, from head to toe, everywhere. I was certified and classified temporary in PES D and have to wait for the eye doctor to give me a full checkup in july. Not only that, i still haven finish my vocational test. So must go back another time. So sad........

Went to suntec to eat with douglas as we were extremely hungry after the checkup. Wanted to support someone, but just seems that things dun allow this to happen. so me n doug decided to go home and rest.....

I think my study mood come back liao. Yay!!! This week is the week for revision lectures and the good thing about this week's sechdule is that there is only at most 3 hours of lecture and you can really concentrate well during such lectures. This is because mainly are revision lectures and u get comfortable with key concepts being done for the second time. This week i'm really in the mood to do solid work. I spent the past few days preparing econs essay outlines and tutorials. This actually helps to boost my confidence for mid-year and i feel that actually things are not that bad.

However, there are too many things lined up for me which hinders me from having more time to do my work. Firstly, on monday, i attended lynn and jill's birthday celebration at kenny rogers. Ate and gossip with my gang n yuesi n lina. Went to take neoprints after that, with 8 of us squeezing into that small pathetic place. Haha.
Not only that, monday & tuesday was devoted to my precious choir, or rather to my beloved J2 choir members. The entire choir committee get together and was writing comments and ticking attributes of each and every year 2 choir member. This is extremely important as what ever reflected in that piece of paper, will affect their testimonials. Thus, much effort was put in in writing them and scanning through each and every member's remarks to ensure fair judgement. Writing for the non-exco have already taken up more than 1 dae and the rest of the time was spent penning fabulous remarks on us exco members. Haha. I wrote quite a lot of comments on other people's remarks slip (all positive ones) and i think i also received quite good comments from my other peers. Now, everything is pending for the teachers to verify my commitments towards the choir for the past 2 years. Nervous and anxious are my feelings now as the papers are going to be passed to ms chen's hands next week. I received quite good comments from the comm members and one that made me remember veri clearly, is the one on E2. E2 refers to effective and efficient. However, i shall not mention who wrote this as this is not important for you to know.

wad makes me most angry, is someone in choir is constantly making me angry. Yelled at me, scolded me and think that i don't have feelings. What ever i say to this person is like rubbish now. Harsh and hurtful returns are all that i got. Even serious work stuff this person oso muz rebut. This person is the 1st to scold me in front of my other peers so fiercely and not giving any face. And i would say this is extremely bias as other members do not receive such treatments. Nont only that, this person discriminates. Is outright discrimination and criticism. Irritating,this makes my day bad and the whole day i was gloomy.

Wed,vesak day was spent with my two cousins at suntec. Viewing the bookfair and window shopping around suntec, marina, citylink, raffles city.

As for today, went for lectures as usual. Followed by that, was an enjoyable tea break with Eileen, Siew Kia and Kenneth. Eileen, sk and I are like pigs while we spent huge bucks on food both at delifrance and macdonalds. Haha, was gossiping and chatting non stop about sch and ended up going home at around 530 pm

Looking forward towards tml movie outing. As for now, i shall jus rest and recharge for tml chemistry marathon.